JK not OK.

So, after this episode in the hospital, i was silently seaching for a solution for my questions. The problem i understood with the situation is, no one understands the problem but everyone has one or more solutions.

During this period i was, for sometime, going  to sky, ok, it is simplified kundalini yoga. But, it is as complicated as it can be. Even before studying shastra my interest in these magical solutions left me.

So, this period, someone introduced me to J.K. philosophy ! Honestly, J.K. might kill me for calling it that. For me the situation was, as the saying goes, the end justifies the means. During this period, since my office during that time was situated just adjacent to jk foundation, Chennai, i was a frequent visitor. Sometime, listening to the lecture in audio format, othertime watching the video (i could imitate his mannerism completely), and  some othertime reading the his books, and many times practising the mind watching. This is a kind of high one can easily get caught by, the mind generates so many varied scenes, it will be like watching the movie film, as the thought unfolds. But, during this watchful period, the mind slows down on its own accord (the mind has a mind of its own). As jk himself says, meditation dullens / lullens your mind.

Ok. Though he says, to give up all dogmas …. (chanting of mantras etc.), i was still chanting the gayatri mantra, though was not performing Sandyavandana as such properly. During this period i got a friend who is way older than i was. He had attended the lectures of jk, and said (!) or seemed to understand the teaching. So, whenever our discussions (or dialogue as jk would like to put it), revolve around mantra, my good old friend used to ridicule it and condemn it with such a vigour, i sometime used to think, even jk himself would have not done it in such a manner. And, i being a very young man / boy (i was around 22), was very naive about all this.

The turning point came, this time around i was not the one to be hospitalised. My old friend was not seen for a couple of days, upon enquiry i got to know that he had suffered a cardiac arrest or something and had undergone a by-pass surgery. After learning, about his whereabouts i went to meet him, beleive me, seriously, this person who was in the bed was murmuring something. When i gave some attention, HE WAS CHANTING ‘RAMA’, ‘RAMA’. This was from a person, who condemned it. I asked him, his answer was “you are young, you wont understand”. I didnt argue, but i didnt leave this matter altogether too.

It didnt bring any calrity to my thoughts, but it did eventually. After some period, my friend when he became healthy enough for a walk started coming to jk center. Now, one such time i re-started the dialogue about chanting. And, here again comes the condemnation for such a blasphemy. I asked him, but were you not doing it in the hospital. The answer is million dollar one, listen to it, “you are young, you wont understand”. I told him, i dont want to, and left the place.

But didnt give-up reading jk, long before i surrendered myself to shastra. That is for another blog.